Labeling trees has become such a routine for me, I really
shouldn’t be too surprised that Charlie would start making it harder. The other day, when I joined him for lunch,
he casually mentioned that the white oak where the woodpecker nest had been had
lost its label (as though he had nothing to do with the label being lost) and
had I relabeled it yet? Of course, I had re-labeled a number of white oaks, so
I probably had gotten the one he meant, but that obviously wasn’t what he was
asking. He wanted to know if I’d noticed the woodpecker nest.
“You wouldn’t have seen it,” he corrected me, “but you might
have heard it.”
I have learned that trying to answer these kinds of
questions with my conscious mind is useless, they’re designed that way. But
sometimes the answer comes to me if I let it. What I could not do was simply
tell Charlie I didn’t know, as if the question didn’t matter. Even though I had
not thought the question was remotely important before Charlie said anything. I
closed my eyes and wandered around in my memory, listening for the rasping
cheep of baby birds.
“You mean the big one with the limb fallen off of it?” I
asked, opening my eyes. “Yes, I got that one.”
He smiled slightly and briefly and went back to reading a
newspaper. After a few minutes he put his newspaper down and we chatted about
other things for a few minutes—he asked me if I’d ever been hunting before, and
when I said I hadn’t he asked if I knew how to shoot. He meant with a bow. I
told him I’d been pretty good at archery in camp when I was a kid and he said
we should go shooting together and see how good I actually am. I figured he was
just making conversation, trying to distract me from whatever he was up to with
the tree labeling.
And since then almost every day he asks me a question like
that—did I get the black cherry with the three tent-caterpillar nests in it?
Did I get the white pine with the lightning strike scar? I could say I don’t
know and leave it at that, but I can’t bring myself to do that. It would
disappoint him. And anyway, making me do insane things I wouldn’t do on my own
is exactly what I asked him to do from the beginning. So I’ve just got to pay a
lot more attention.
In any case, the semester continues. Each class has met six
times now, and the strange thing is it’s like they’re talking to each other. I don’t
mean the teachers talk to each other, though obviously they do sometimes, I
mean that the subjects of the four classes I’m taking interact with each other
and form an odd sort of whole.
I wouldn’t be surprised that Charlie’s classes relate to
each other, except that a lot of people taking one class aren’t taking the
other one—and a lot of the overlaps are surprises. Like, the other week in
Environmentalism for Dummies we covered exotic organisms and one of the two
case studies we used was the story of the chestnut blight. It’s a very sad
story, and something I’d never really thought of before—that the woods I know
are not the same woods as grew a hundred years ago, that they’re reduced in
some fundamental way. American chestnuts used to be really common and really
important trees, and they’re just gone now, not that they’re extinct—they aren’t—but
there are so few of them now that they forests they helped create are gone. It’s
a new and poorer forest now. There’s this shadow of loss across the entire
eastern part of the country and I just never noticed it before. Then, the next
Friday we went off campus in Messing Around Outdoors and went for a walk up a
small hill Charlie knows about. Some of the leaves, mostly green but with
yellowish edges, are starting to fall. I can’t tell if they’re the first fallen
leaves of autumn or just the sort of leaves that come off randomly in summer,
or even if the question makes sense at all. Anyway so we were walking along,
and suddenly Charlie stopped talking, reached down, and picked something up. It
was an American chestnut leaf.
American Chestnut Leaf |
The other classes interact, too. Charlie talks about
scientific method and uncertainty—how when scientists say they can’t prove this
or that it doesn’t mean people shouldn’t take their warnings seriously—and I
think about something Allen was saying about statistics in relation to
something completely different, and the lights go on. I just suddenly realized
that scientific uncertainty is different from regular uncertainty, because the
degree of uncertainty can be known. Regular uncertainty is just the absence of
emotional certainty, which is wrong half the time anyway. So when scientists
say they are sure enough that global
warming is real, that means a lot more than an ordinary “kinda sure.”
And then Charlie shows us a paper wasp nest hanging from a
tree and I think about self-organizing
systems from Complex Systems class. Or
we cover entropy in Complex Systems and then the next week in Environmentalism
for Dummies Charlie mentions the same concept in relation to the extinction of
species and what he says makes so much more sense.
Paper Wasp Nest |
They couldn’t possibly be planning this. I mean, if there
were only four classes that all of us were taking they could plan it, and maybe
they did for Spring semester when most of us were taking the same classes, but
now it would be too complex. We have too many options, there are too many
patterns for them to keep track of and orchestrate.
But I don’t think it’s random, either. Or, it’s not random
in the ordinary way. It’s the sort of thing that happens all the time around
here. Things just work out. The right conversation happens at the right time,
enough money shows up just when it’s needed, the coincidences all work the
right way. Kit would say it’s no coincidence. Allen would say it probably is
coincidence—if you studied it properly all these things would probably be
entirely consistent with what’s expected by chance. But Allen would also ask
why something that is random can’t also be meaningful.
And so I go to my classes and I label my trees. I’ve started
bowing to them to show respect, a tendency I picked up in martial arts class
over the summer. It seems like the right thing to do.
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